melting away
im a candle losing light
drifting on this ocean
im slowly losing sight
of you

giving in
to the bitter cold of night
im quickly losing grip
losing the will to fight
for you

can’t you see
the truth is in my eyes
and soon the reason for
this feeling’s sweet demise
is you

when will the waiting end?
when will the wounds heal?
when will you be mine?
when will my dreams be real?

my friend the sea

by felvz

i embraced the sea again

breathed in the calming breeze

listened to the soothing serenade of the surf

walked over a carpet of a billion diamonds

a reunion with a beloved refuge

nothing compares to the comfort

my old friend gives.

Ballad for a  Rose

by felvz

I came upon a fine garden one day.

I walked inside to see if there’s a place to stay

just to spend time and kill some idle moments.

I was lucky

there was space for me.

I looked around for wonderful things to see.

I walked amidst the bushes, trees, and shrubs,

then I came upon this magnificent rose.

Hw red and dazzling it was.

It greeted me with a fervent smile

with its beaming, blooming, red petals.

I couldn’t help but smile back.

The flower left me in awe…

it was pretty beyond all that I saw.

I said to myself

“Oh how i would like to take you home…

nothing else in this garden

but you alone…

put you in a vase

and call you my own.”

I stared, and stared, and stared

as I sat before the rose.

But time flies.

Andd like lightning it goes.

I soon had to leave the garden

for i’m needed somewhere else.

“You’d still be here tomorrow, I suppose.

I’ll be back ‘til then to watch you pose…

goodbye for now my lovely rose.”

The flower since then I could never forget.

It haunted me throughout the night.

I couldn’t wait to go back to the garden

and behold of its comely sight…

And so the sleepless night passed,

my waiting finally ended.

Sunbeams signaled a new day,

thoughts all suspended.

I arose from my bed.

I fixed myself and went ahead

to the garden so green

where the radiant rose I have seen.

I entered.

I hurried to the place,

to that little spot

where the rose with all its grace

bewildered my puny little heart.

I found it.

There it was.

It gleamed gloriously as ever.

Right then I knew I would forget it never.

I stared, and stared, and stared

as i sat before the rose.

Oh how I wished and prayed

that nobody else knows

of the little beauty I found in the garden.

For losing my lovely rose

I would not want to happen.

And I thought to myself

“I have to take it home,

nothing else in the garden but it alone,

put it in a vase and call it my own.”

I was about to pluck the beauty

to take it home with me.

But I paused

when from nowhere came a bee.

Oh how the rose glowed with joy

when the bee it did see.

The bee hovered,

danced, and shuffled

over the rose.

And the lovely flower watched in delight

as the bee fluttered with all its might.

It landed upon the blossom’s face

as if giving it a warm, tender embrace.

It smothered my rose with kisses

as if the flower it really misses

so much…

A tear rolled down my cheek

I felt suddenly meek,

hushed by the scene.

It was something I knew not

or something I just forgot

to consider

My heart went asunder.

the rose and the bee…

they belong together.

I threw you the obvious
and you flew with it on your back,
a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.

It’s difficult not to feel a little bit
disappointed and passed over
when i’ve looked right through
to see you smiling and oblivious
and you don’t see me.

But i threw you the obvious
just to see if there’s more behind the eyes
of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.

Here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
i see through
and see you.

so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind
the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy.
oh well. apparently nothing.
you don’t see me.
you don’t see me at all.

"My Moon"
by felvz

Once you seemed to me
a smile adrift a backlit canopy
You were lovely then
breathtaking…
even more so now
in praise to you the heavens bow

Once you seemed to me
a lucent boat afloat a sable sea
You were lovely then
breathtaking…
even more tonight
caress my face with beams so bright

Once you seemed to me
a glowing cradle underneath a tree
You were lovely then
breathtaking…
even more this time
come fill my heart with faith sublime

Each night reveals a different you
as time unfolds a clearer view
Though fade you must, I will be strong
My moon please don’t be gone for long

The distance set between us two
provides for me a better view
Though wait I must, ’til I can fly,
I’ll kiss my moon before I die!

life is full of surprises.

the surprise i got last week was an expected one… i was prepared, thought i was up to it… now i am so amazed why some expected surprises can still hurt so bad. *sighs.                i hope i haven’t lost a friend.

isipin ko na lang… ham ‘to.