Hear from this penitent’s heart,
serenades that some say
are worthless
now that you are gone…
But the distance
only commands crescendo!
This man,
this soul, still seeks
to be one with yours.
Will you listen once more?
Will your heart beat as fast as mine?
It once did.
And I sing
at the thought of those days.
Smile for me though I can’t see
The subtle curves of your lips
The silky slope of your brows
The spellbinding bend of your eyes.
In the distance, the mere thought of you
Exhilarates, breathes life to a gasping soul.
I was a ship lost in the sea of indecision.
Tossed to and fro, oblivious,
Left to the mercy of what was beyond.
Then like an ephemeral wind, you took me by the helm
And in a fleeting moment, steered me back to direction.
Then you are gone.
Now where I’m headed, I know not
But faith assures my arrival.
I am a ship, in this empty sea.
Alone.
I sail on the course you have shown.
A voyage bound to shore
To a place where I wish you will be there
To blow on my sails forever…
And imagination ends.
Azure waves paint your smile
in dreamy clouds when my eyes are closed
Do you feel this longing?
Do you feel how cold it is where I am
without you?
While drunken you are
with the laughs you seek,
the smiles you wear mask the truth
your heart is too numb to feel.
How quick doth love depart a soul?
As quick as man soils his
senses with the wiles of the world.
Or am I the one marred?
If I am, am I alone?
Have I not been
through the depths of torment?
Have I not tasted
of your absence enough?
If death is anything
It is this.
It is this distance.
But I still live.
For the love I feel for you
is the very air I breathe.
While you are still at arms reach
I pray.
Deny not these shores.
Deny not the love I give.
But if only to prove that this ardor
Is deeper than the sea where you gaily drift
I shall swim across
just to make you feel one last time
That you have already found
the harbor you seek
right here
in my arms.
They sneer at my pain,
belittle what I am now.
God bless their hearts
for they doth see
nothing but skin.
They see nothing but now.
Someday
They will bow.
And when they have
finally seen what this
cocoon covers,
they will weep.
But with my wings
I shall console.
And then will they feel
that I truly loved.
